Sandhya Pov-

What am I going to do with this man.
He kissed me when I was making him understand something so crucial and the very next moment he was back to himself.
Scientists should carry out research on him .
When I first  heard of him from Raj uncle ...I thought he is a spoilt brat who doesn't listen to his parents and does what he pleases .
When I saw him as Amu's father , I had a complete diffrent opinion of him .
When he hurt me , I thought of him as self obsessed , rigid , egoistic, arrogant and what not .
And Now I don't know what to think of him after that incident. This man will make me crazy one day .
He was clear in our first meeting only  about his needs but I didn't expect him to act on them so easily.
I was attracted to him by seeing his photo only . I never had a boyfriend as I reserved  myself for my husband only .
When I said yes to this marriage I was sure about  giving myself to him .
I have read about intemacy and how does things feel but what he made me feel was just out of this world .
My body was not in my control . His touch  created a complete different sensation in my body .
For a moment I felt like I will get a heart attack . I felt sudden chills in my body , my heartbeats were erotic , my cheeks and ear felt hot , my lower abdomen hurt and my core pulsated when he kissed me .
And the one who did the deed was unbothered.
I tried to behave normally when we joined the rest of gang but I could easily tell that they all got an idea about might have happened between us .
Akshitha, Vaani and Shristhi teased me continuesally turning me into a blushing mess .
And when I saw my reflection in the mirror I knew why everyone was so sure that something has happened between us ....my lips were swollen .
I just hope maa and Papa has not noticed this otherwise I will die out of embarrassment.
I tried hard not to think about that kiss anymore but I just can't keep it out of my mind . It's like it's etched on my heart forever , afterall it was my first kiss .
The mere thought of him doing other things to me beyond kiss is giving me goosebumps.
I know I won't be able to stop him if he will initiate any kind of intimacy. Words fail to come out of my mouth when he is near me . But Do I want to stop him . Although I don't want to accept it but the answer is No .
I want to feel everything with him . I know there won't be any other male in my life after him and I just want to submit myself to him .
Coming to Love....for me love is not something that happens in a specific period of time . I have a complete different opinion about the concept of love that most of the people might not agree with .
For me love is being habitual of something. Something that become a part of your life . It's not like I don't value other factors like nature , behaviour and character of that person. infact they plays crucial role in the phenomenon called love .
I believe these factors define the amount of your love and intensify it over time .
Like if some one is good to you , care about you , truthful and honest to you ....you will automatically feel more love towards them and if things go in the opposite way your love might vanish over time and you give up on the love in the end  .
Like parents love for their children. Parents start loving their children when they are not even born  because they know that the child belongs to them. That feeling of  belongingness is love .
I know after marriage I will belong to him . I will be his and he will be mine .
So that's what I believe.

Diiiiii..... Shrishti's called me braking the chain of my thoughts.
What !!! I asked turning to door where she was standing.
Come downstairs. Raj uncle and the family is on video call , they are asking about you....she informed and I nodded getting up from the bed .
I followed her setting my hairs and sat beside Papa and Maa .
I greeted the Rana family , Ami looked hearing my voice and smiled brightly seeing me on the screen.
Mummmaaa.......she shrieked in excitement and tapped on the screen in an attempt to touch my face and I smiled while heartedly seeing her acceptance and love towards me.
Everyone chuckled at her antics.
Mumma com ....she asked me to come to her and I just wanted to hug her close to my chest.
Your Mumma will be here soon Amu.... Kalyani Aunty said and Amu nodded as if understanding everything.
She then got busy with her toys as I started talking with Uncle , Aunty and Vihaan .
Sandhya beta call us Dad and Maa now . This Uncle and Aunty feels too formal now....Raj uncle I mean Dad said and I just nodded feeling odd .
I mean it will take me time to adjust with the new changing relations but It felt good too that they all have accepted me in their lives so easily.
He was not home yet .... Kalyani Maa told me while we were chatting. He had gone with Vikram and Akash Bhaiya .
Vaani di had told me about their friendship when she came here on our engagement. These 3 are so secretive that they don't discuss their things with anyone else .
Vaani di also told me About Akshita 's liking towards Vikram making Akshita blush .
But he don't even look at my way and always scold me when I try to get closer to him . He asked me to focus on my studies and leave this stupidity when I had confessed my feelings to him ... Akshita has complained about him .
May be he is waiting for you to complete your studies and also he is your brother's best friend first . He wouldn't want to risk anything in hurry ....I told her and Vaani di agreed too as I have noticed Vikram stealing glances at Akshita.