Mishika POV

Ridhima Di helped me to change my heavy lengha to a less heavy golden saree .

I was just wearing my wedding bangles ....mangalsutra ... engagement ring .....toe rings , Anklets and hairline filled with sindoor.

I myself couldn't stop gushing over my new look . My hands were filled with Henna .
Ridhima Di put a crystal bindi in between my brows.

I swear Mishika ...If I were a boy I would have kidnapped you and married you no matter what ....she said making me chuckle.

Ohhhh god Bhabhi you look so beautiful....Bhai is such a lucky man  yrrrr ....One of his cousins sister said making me blush .

Bhabhi abhi se itna Sharma rahi ho aap ....abhi toh Puri raat baaki h .....another one who is married said and My heartbeat raced knowing the meaning behind her words but I don't know if he would initiate something like that or not today .

But still I am nervous and excited both as it's going to be our first night together as a husband and wife .

I don't expect physical closeness but we can talk to each other ....share our views, can bond emotionally, can talk about our future , our families and many more things as such...

They teased me a lot and then escorted me to his or I can say 'our ' room which was decorated with flowers and scented candles.

I blushed at the thought of him and me being in this same room .
They talked to me for some time and then left to look for him as they wanted their neg (money or some gift as a part of the ritual ).

They waited for some time for him to come but when he didn't they went to sleep as it was quite late at night .

I kept sitting on the bed waiting for him thinking about what should I talk about .
Hmmm....I will ask him about his likes , dislike and will share mine with him .

If he would like to sleep then we can do that too as I am also bit tired .
I am happy any ways .

I looked at the clock and it was 3 am and he has not come till now .
Where is he ? I thought for a moment and then walked into the balcony to get some fresh air as I was feeling sleepy sitting on the bed and I don't want to fall asleep before he comes home.

After half an hour I decided to check ones in the hall but to my surprise the house was completely silent .
Everyone is sleeping in their rooms but he was no where .

The thought of him leaving the house on our first night without even letting me know brought tears to my eyes .
Didn't he know that I will be waiting for him .

I changed my clothes and cleared the flowers from the bedsheet as the candles have already blown out.

I paid on the bed feeling hurt and sleep took over me as I was completely exhausted physically and mentally both .

Next morning........

I woke up as my Alam went off and looked beside me .
He didn't came back home last night .
Maybe koi emergency hogi .....I thought being positive.

I walked to the washroom and took a warm bath and did my morning routine.
I wore a green saree and left my long hairs open filling my hairline with sindoor.

After doing a minimal makeup and applying lipstick I left downstairs.

I greeted Maa who kissed my forhead putting a kajal dot behind my ears.
I greeted all his maasi , bua  , Chachi  , Tai ji and other ladies that were present in the hall .

Maa offered me a cup of tea and I took it sitting beside her .
They all started chatting and Maa introduced me with some of her friends whom I couldn't meet yesterday.

His cousins came too and Ridhima Di entered the hall with a crying Nirvi .

Arrey kya hua hai mere bache ko kyu ro Rahi h .....Maa asked taking Nirvi in her arms .
Kuch nahi gir gai .....bhaag k aa rahi thi .... Ridhima Di said sitting beside me .

Every colour suits you so well .....she said smiling at me and I thanked her.
I was talking to her and the other cousins who were asking me about last night when Abhimanyu entered home .

Abhiiii bahar se kaha se aa raha h beta itni subah mei  .....Maa asked him confused.
Kuch nahi Maa , kal raat ko kuch emergency ho gai thi toh muje jaana pada he said before heading upstairs.

He didn't came to the room last night .... Ridhima Di asked me making me shook my head.
Is he crazy or what ??? Ughhhh kuch nahi ho sakta iska . Pata nahi assi bhi kya emergency thi jo isko hi jaana tha .....she said .

Don't talk to him now and give him silent treatment or he will get used to  repeating such things .
Starting se hi iski lagam kas k rakho .....she said making me chuckle.

Mishka beta ....comes lets do your chula (stove ) poojan ....then you need to make a sweet dish ......Maa said to me and I followed her to the kitchen.

Kya banau maa ....I asked her and she smiled.
Jo Tera man kare vo bana le beta .....she said caressing my hair .

Bhabhi yrrr no halwa please ......make something else......One of the cousin's said and Ridhi di nodded too .

Kheer bana du ....I asked and they all grinned.
I got busy in the prepration of the kheer while the cook prepared the breakfast.

Maa....coffee de do yrrr and mera omlette bhi .....I am really hungry .....I heard Abhimanyu.

The cook hurriedly served him his breakfast and coffee while I stirred the kheer .

Maa came to check on me .
Areyyy wahhh khushboo toh badi achi aa rahi h ....she said making me smile .

Maa.....mei Jaa Raha hu .....he said entering the kitchen and I looked at him and he finally noticed me and gave me a small smile that looked absolutely forced .

I concentrated back on my kheer not responding to his forced smile.

Jaa Raha hu ka kya matlab hai beta ..... Didn't I asked you take a leave ...abhi asa kya ho gya h achanak se .....Mishika ki pehli rasoi hai ....Ghar mei saare mehmaan hai .....asse acha thodi lagta h Abhii ......Maa said .

Maa mujhe jaana padega ....it's really urgent . One of my friend is admitted in the hospital......he said.
Kya hua ....kuch serious toh nahi ....Maa asked being worried.
Nahi ...abhi out of danger hai....but I need to check once .....he said .

Thodi der ruk k chale jaana beta.....Mishika bas kheer bana hi Rahi h .....she said .

Maa mei lunch time mei khaa lunga kheer and vese bhi I just had my breakfast and I don't feel like eating anything......he said and I felt hurt .
Taste toh kar hi sakte the ....I thought .

Maa left the kitchen as Bua ji called her leaving the two of us alone .
Mishika I am sorry....I know I ....before he could say anything further I cut him off in between.

It's okay Abhimanyu....I said not even sparing him a glance .
Listen to me once yrr....ye said standing near me and I continued steering the kheer.

He held my hand turning the gas to sim.
I was waiting for you last night till 4:00 am .
Jaana tha toh ek baar muje bata toh dete ......I said with moist eyes and he looked at me with guilty eyes.

He held my hands and before he could utter a word Maasi ji came to the kitchen and I freed my hands from him and stood away .

Beta Ek cup Chai bana de Zara ....she said politely and I nodded .
Abhiii pareshan mat kar bachi ko kaam karne de usse....she said with a chuckle and he hummed looking at me .

Mishika I need to talk to you .....he said after Maasi ji left .
Kahiye mei sunn Rahi hu ....I said putting a pan on the stove to prepare the tea .

Actually the friend I was talking about to Maa is Shreya ......he said making me frown but then realisation dawned upon me that Shreya is non other then his ex girlfriend and my heart dropped to my stomach.

I realses a shaky breath and looked at him .
Don't take it wrong . Listen to me first. I have moved on from her .....there is nothing between us now .....he said and I stayed quite .

She came here on Sangeet night and was crying and begging for me to accept her back and I clearly told her that it's over between us and she has said that she would die and last night she tried to commit suicide by slitting her wrist......he said and I was shocked to learn this .

So I went to the hospital last night .....He said .
She is out of the danger now ...he added .
I didn't say anything but I am not an idiot to not understand that he still care for her and has spent last night in the hospital and again going back to check on her .

Does telling me everything will change the fact of him being worried about her or still having feelings for her ........I thought and felt like crying.

I was so lost in the thought and accidentally my hand touched the hot pan and I hissed loudly..

Ohh God Mishika ...dhyan kaha h tumhara ....show me ....he said and was about to touch my hand but I moved away..

It's nothing....aap please jaaiye ....aapko der ho rahi hogi and I have so much of work to do ......I said and poured the tea in the cup.

Mishika..... please it's not ...

I left the kitchen with the tea cup before he could say something else .
I don't want to listen to anything.
His clarifications won't change anything and the more he will try to justify his actions more I will hurt .

I sat beside Maa to avoid him and he got a call and left tobrhe hospital.
I excused my self and after checking that kheer one last time ....I came to the room and cried hugging a pillow.

I knew he has a past and it's not easy to forget your first love . But it's still hurting me . He says that he has moved on from her but that's not true .

I dont know he will ever be able to move on from her or not ....
If I will have a happy married life or not ....
I just don't know anything.......

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